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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: miwa Location: California, United States Birthday: 12/15/1986 Gender: Female Message: message me Member Since: 2/28/2006

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

ALMOST OVER

its almost over...after friday...i will basically be done except for finals. wutta relief. Hopefully I dont die before that. I hate school. blahh

This week is just depressing. I WANT IT TO BE OVER!!!

maybe im thinking too much but lately it feels like some people that I thought I have grown close to....are drifting away. is it me thats pushing them away? I know i have the tendency to do that. I think its cuz im so used to friends moving away ever since I was young. In Japanese school, my best friends would always move back to Japan after a year so I would have to say goodbye and go about making new friends. I got used to it. Plus we were young so who keeps in touch with their friends unless their parents do it? So maybe its natural for me to make friends, push them away, forget and make more new friends. im sucha bad friend...I hope im not pushing anyone away. Maybe im feeling like this because we are all busy. I dunno.

O yea and I REALLY WANT A PUG. dogs will always be by your side. Living away from home makes me realize how much the family environment is a huge part of my daily life. so i want a dog. I think i will be a happier person. But alot of people, especially my mom, is very against it becuase they think i would become like a anti social girl always with her dog. "You need to get a boy friend first" is what I usually get. hahahaa blahblahblah wutever. ITS BERKELEY.

Hm wutelse...o yea i started teaching cardio kickboxing at the gym. well im still in training but its so much fun. I love it. Thanks to Shane=)

Next week is banquet for NSU. lots of planning but good times. it will be my last task ever as a core member. yay. I hope banquet will be fun=)

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Monday, April 10, 2006

ah! its already the end of the weekend!
it went by wayy too fast...

saturday i went to Japan town to learn more about the sale. I dunno how many of you are know but 2/3 of Japantown is being sold to a non Japanese owner which means the existence of Japantown is at risk. Although I would hate to see Japantown disappear because it represents our culture, however, at the same time i never really felt so connected to Japantown. I saw it more as another attraction within sf and not so much as a "community". On the surface its "japanese" but i think the actual culture is getting lost. In my eyes, Japantown is slowly dying...turning into korean town sort of.

At this point, I feel the sale may be good for Japantown because it is forcing people in Jtown to make changes within the community. Apparently they are adding a place called "Jpop" where theyre gonna play animes and stuff. fun stuff=) Although im not an anime maniac, i think its good that they are starting to target the youths, providing a place for them to come and do something within Jtown. They should improve their karaoke place. Anyways, looking it from a city development perspective, I would think san francisco would support Jtown in preserving the site as a place for "Japanese culture" because it could serve as another unique feature of the entire city that attracts tourists. Especially because there are only 3 Japantowns left in california. Losing that could potentially be a big loss for sf. However, that means Jtown itself needs to make big improvements. I think they should use the Japanese culture as a tool and to their advantage. Who would shop in Jtown if they sold stuff that they could buy elsewhere? Who would eat there if the food is the same as any Japanese restaurants thats all over the place now? They need to bring in the Japanese culture that is not so accessible elsewhere. and i think dats possible.

Also, Jtown needs to change the people who they target from just Japanese Americans who have a long history in America to including the issei and shin nissei. People say the Japanese American population is slowly decreasing and gonna die out but i dont think thats true because of the close ties between american and Japan. Every year lots of people come from Japan to america for business and such. Its natural for the 3rd for 4th generation to lose that close connection with the Japanese culture so its understandable that they wouldnt come so much to Jtown. However, being shinnisei, I feel Jtown should be a place where Japanese Americans who identify as being Japanese and American at the same time feel at home. I never really understood what Japanese American meant because i felt very Japanese at certain times and very American at other times. I always had trouble finding where I really belong. I want Japantown to be a place within my American home where I feel im in my Japanese home at the same time. A place where all generations can come and be reminded of the actual culture they descend from. If not, I think the Japanese culture will truly be lost. hmm kinda confusing. rite now i feel like Japantown is another theme in disneyland or something. If Japantown could create an environment thats more cultured, I feel people will come visit more...not just Japanese Americans but people in general and they will probably be able to learn more about the culture. maybe im being too optimistic. hm o well

Anyways we also went to the Japanese tea garden which was beautiful with all the flowers. very well landscaped to make it look asian not really japanese. but it was very nice. I also walked around the de young museum. Im not sure what walterhood landscaped... haha

sunday...i pretty much slept all day which was very nice. i finally felt like i got some sleep. awesome...but i did have the weirdest dream especially cuz i usually dont dream!
now i should get some work done.

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

	ulcer gives me a reason to cry back in the states...sigh
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Friday, March 31, 2006

justa lil update

I hope everyone is enjoying their spring break

spring break in japan has been a good one and a miserable one

my grandpa is doing ok. hez not in pain or anything but he is definitely not the grandpa i used to know. It looks like his energy, passion, humor, spirit have been sucked out. Sometimes im not sure if he knows that its me.

But ive learned to accept the fact that he has cancer and there is no way of getting rid of it. Although, now that i accept that he is dying, im not sure of how to say goodbye. I dont think he is going to die while im here...so what do i say when i leave japan? I usually say ill come again and he should come visit me in America too. what is a FINAL goodbye?

Besides all that gloominess, I went shopping for the first time yesterday...fun times.

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!

and im screwed cuz i have so much work to do!!! ahh!!!

okie dokie

dats it for now

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MIWA

im bored as i wait for my grandma to come home from the hospital...so thanks sally=)

||Birth Name|| Miwa

||Nickname|| i have many...
||Age you act|| according to the test i took online...im 78 hahaha...people do tell me that I act older than my actual age...but then again i can act like a crazy 2 year old

||Height|| 4'10"...many advantages of being short

||Birthplace|| San Jose

HAVE YOU EVER...

||Pictured your crush naked|| no

||actually seen your crush naked|| no

||been in love|| hmm...i love my family and friends...significant other...mebbe?

||cried when someone died|| yes

||drank alcohol|| yes

||Fallen for your best friend|| yes..no...im not sure what the status was

||been rejected|| yes...i hate UCLA...jk

||rejected some one|| yes

||been cheated on|| yes...so dumb ahhh

||done something u regret|| everyday

||Been In Jail| no

||Ran away from home|| yes...to my second home...24 hour fitness...hahaha i can go there any time of the day!!!

||Hit a Boy|| yes

||Hit A Girl|| yes

||Broken a bone|| yes

||Cheated On a Test|| yea all through high school...haha

||Let a friend cry on your shoulder|| anytime my friends=)

||Fell asleep in the bath|| no

||Walked in on someone changing or showering|| yes

||Gone to Church|| in japan with my grandma

||Never slept during a night|| I am an architect major

||Seen someone die|| yes rite now...i hate it

||Thought you were in love|| hm mebbe

||Screamed at someone for no reason|| yes

||Stayed up till 4 am on the phone|| no

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...

||what do u notice first?|| how they present themselves

||last person u slow danced with|| i dont remember...i miss those innocent slow dances

||worst thing to say|| depends on the situation

||do you have a crush|| im picky

WHAT COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT..

||Bill Clinton|| president

||Love at First Sight|| no love...sparks at first sight

||Abortion|| pain

||Pot|| head

||Eating disorders|| starve

||Rap|| i dont know what theyre saying

||Marilyn Manson|| lovely

||Suicide|| sin

||Drinking|| the truth comes out

||Life|| sweet and sour

||Memory of the year|| Noise Ordinance, culture night, talking all night with the girls

||Food|| japanese food is so yummy!

||Favorite movie|| depends on the mood

||Favorite Book|| gotaifumanzoku

||Favorite type of music|| anything except screaming

||Favorite type of cars|| as long as im not the driver...or big cars when i have to sit in the bitch seat

||Favorite Saying|| hardwork pays off in the end

||Favorite Fast Food|| gross

||Favorite Ice Cream|| i had gelato for the first time ...YUM...i wanna try them ALL

||Favorite Alcohol|| fruity...but after couple shots...i tend to swig anything

||Favorite Television Show(s)| Jdrama

||Your Ideal BF/GF|| if i get really picky it would take forever to describe...but whats most important...someone who makes me feel comfortable and safe...someone who can give me a big warm bear hug

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU...

||Took A Shower|| 2hours ago

||Cried|| everynite for the past week

||Watched a Disney movie|| long time ago

||Received a hug|| prob from my wonderful friends on friday before spring break...i cant wait to see you all

||Where do u want to live|| in the house i designed

||How Many Kids You Want|| 2...boy and a girl...but as i look at my grandparents, i dont mind a big family...more the merrier

||What Kind Of Job You Want|| i want to do something that has to do with architecture and also interaction with people...make a difference...

YOU...

||i want|| peace

||i wish|| for everyone to be healthy, safe and live forever

||i love|| hugs

||i miss|| my friends

||i fear|| of being alone, of failing, and of being lost

||how do u know its love?|| you just know...scary to acknowledge tho

now you know a lil bit more about me

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